i dunno wat came over mi today… i msn someone which i had not contacted for very long … can say sort of avoided him all the while cos i did not want to give him false hope.. and den… i realli dunno wat came over mi i actualli msn him..
and den i’m so confused… should i choose a guy that treats mi well or i should choose one that i treat better.. but den that’s onli a start of procrastination.. and hurting myself.. and darn… cos I BROUGHT IT UPON MYSELF… i shouldnt have msn him.. i shouldnt have toked to him abt the past…
i shouldnt even have thought abt the ifs…. wat should i do?
hai~ having a lot of mixed feelings when blogging todae..
i was very happy when i woke up in the morn, a few weeks ago.. and someone msg mi say he got block leave and wanna bring mi to Genting for our 3 year Anniversary celebration.. but den… it turn out tt he gng batam with his family.. and worse of all he cant understand my intention of postponing this trip.. although i realli realli wanna go.. y iz it so tiring…~?~
aniwae.. good thing is tt pay day is fast approaching.. and i cant wait for tt day to come.. all the more i cant wait for my probation to be over.. and i can gain a pay rise… ~haha~
anyway i wanna say i realli hate that stupid, idiotic, arshole for upsetting my life…
arh~ alone in the office again~ i’m counting down to off work time.. ~haha~ gng to go out watch show… hmm… oh yah… forgot to check wat are the movies showing…
oh yah.. i met my ex classmate for dinner last night, and saw her darling son’s photos… haha.. so cute… and he’s my godson.. oh my.. i’ve got a cute, chubby and active godson.. and he’s realli handsome.. cant wait for him to start crawling and play with him…
anyway.. a week of work has gone by.. left with two more weeks to count down.. when i’m studying, i’ll always be trying to work… after working for a month plus.. i’m seriously sick of working… onli the pay’s motivating mi to go to work.. maybe it’ll be better next month cos its my bdae… and my dear is having block leave.. so at least still can go out ba~ arh~ …. i go back and countdown le~
been quite a few days since i blogged… hmm… not realli busy.. although i’m terribly bored at work… oppps~!~ haha.. supposed to be good rite?? but it isnt so rotting away ya~
well~ my dog’s got ticks and tt’s pretty bad.. cos it means that he has gotta shave down again… which the groomer did yesterday… poor boy~ cos now he’s cold at night without the fur coat. hai~ and i couldnt let him sleep on the bed~ sigh~ so the poor boy could onli lie on an old blanket… my poor boy~ worse of all.. if my hubby knoes that i’ve juz shaven our little boy boy.. he’s gng to NAG at mi again… sigh~ luckily this weekend he’s too busy to come over and see boy boy.. if not i cant imagine his reaction… haha~
oh yah~ my boss upgraded the comp i use at work.. haha~ at least i can surf net and check info when i’m bored…
tt’s all for the day~ ~tata~
to all that have attended alvin’s bdae chalet: i’ve uploaded the photos to this link
Although yesterday i had a very frustrating and bored afternoon… nonetheless.. i still met up with my dear..
went for dinner.. den to club momo… it wasnt tt bad dere, onli thing was there wasnt any seats… ~sigh~ oh yah… it was pretty entertaining… cos i was looking at this uncle dancing away at the podium… it was so hilarous….
after which we headed to boat quay for supper.. den to a karaoke pub.. i think i enjoyed myself there most.. cos it was realli fun playing games there.. onli thing is the pple singing dere wasnt realli so good… on top of that.. dey kept repeating the same songs… *puzzled*
after which we headed towards devils bar~ OMG~ its still very crowded and jam packed with people though its after three… but i din realli liked going to level three.. i prefer level two… well.. went upstair to the third floor, so many people.. and argh~ there was a fight and the drinks split on my skirt so i have to leave.. and that ended my sat night~ ~lol~
i juz dun understand him… last week couldnt meet cos he got to book in early.. and he’s tired.. we missed celbrating our anniversary.. ok.. its a monthly one.. so its not that bad.. he promised to meet mi this fri and sat to accompany mi.. so i went to take off… on fri nite at 7 plus den he told mi he couldnt meet mi bcos he had to go his campmates bdae.. den wat abt mi? i’m left stranded.. never mind.. say meet on sat 11 am at orchard.. but den he knows that he is meeting mi todae… he still can go home at 5 AM in the MORNING… and make mi wait till he wakes up… CAN U BELIEVE IT??? den never mind… i wait lor… 12.30pm den he call mi to say that he juz woke up.. AND GAVE MI HIS IRRITATING ATTITUDE LIKE EVERYTHING IS MY FUCKING FAULT…DAMN… he was not even apologetic AT ALL… i asked him why he never even say sorry for wat happened.. then he said sorry lor…. den u still want to mit or not?? can u believe it.. he can give such a reply… i already keep quiet and step back once and again… but he juz treat mi like SHIT~!~ Its always frens frens frens… its ok if he meets frens.. i ‘m not angry with it.. i’m onli angry when you met frens and juz forget ur responsibilities and promises… i know that if u meet ur frens on fri nite, u surely will not be able to meet mi as promise.. cos u dun know wat time is ur limit.. if u know your limits, like miting mi on sat, den u go and meet ur frens on fri and go home early and keep your promise to mit mi on time.. i wun be angry and have to quarrel so often… but ALWAYS u cannot do it.. and u dun even feel that its YOUR FAULT.. and blame everything on mi… ITS NOT FAIR~~~~~~
Haha~ finally~!~ today’s my first saturday off… after slogging away for a month… yippee~ and of cos i’ve gotten my pay check.. so happie.. cos i wun have that much stress abt my bills and study loans anymore.. ~haha~
sad thing is i took this week off to accompany a PIG on his block leave… but den lei… he say he wanna go his fren’s bdae.. Fine~ so i’m left t home rotting away my friday nite… can u believe it? and its not my fault lor.. cos he onli told mi his plan at 7pm! where the hell am i gng to find entertainment except home… PIG~!~ den never mind… today supposed to meet mi 11am to go orchard ktv, walk walk… but den ar~ i think he reached home at 5+++ am in the morn lor.. so i think he’s going to waste my morning too… PIG~!~ waste my ONE and ONLY ONE SAT OFF!!!!!!!! PiG~~~~~!!!!!~~~~~ so PISSED OFFF~~~ and here am i sitting in front of the comp venting off my frustration while waiting for that PIG to PIG finish and wake up… DAMN… there goes my sat off…. ~sigh~
