i feel very tired. i dunno if i should still continue in this unwanted relationship. it seems that nothing else seems more impt to him then he himself. i’m so tired of maintaining this relationship. i dun ask for much, i dun expect a rich guy with tons of money to crash the world. or a high flyer in society, nor a guy that has a car. i’m not so materialistic as to ask for the comforts of life. but i juz need a loyal and caring guy. tt’s all… is even that too much to ask for in this society. maybe i should learn to be like my galfrens. never commit in a relationship, and ultimate aim is to get their branded stuffs, holidays overseas. y do i sacrifice so much and get nothing back in return. y is he so selfish that he cant even sacrifice a bit for mi. wat is our relationship to him? y he can say the person he love most is mi but den he can juz dun care abt my feeling when he does things.
i dun believe in lies, be it in black or white. i only believe in honesty. if u went to club momo and saw those gals or with those gals.. be it that u meet them coincedentally there or purposely there.. i dun care… i juz want to hear the truth from u and not from other pple. wat am i supposed to say when pple tell mi, hey ur guy is at katong playing balls.. and all the while i tot u are at camp. or i saw ur guy surrounded by gals.. when i tot that u were onli with a guy fren.. wat am i supposed to do to shield myself from the hurt that u keep inflicting on mi. and say that i’m overdoing things, i shouldnt kick up a fuss over a white lie. i have never even lied to you.. be it white or black.. and you have already said so many lies. and u expect 100 percent trust.. it is impossible..
i dun understand how i can give up a secure relationship and marriage proposal for this idiot.
i juz dun understand how impt am i to him. he doesnt even bother to get mi a my birthday present…
worse of all, he can even tell mi his so called white lie. gng to club momo last nite to see his exes~!~ not speaking of trusts~!~ cos i’ve seen too much of BITCHES AND SLUTS~!~ i know of this irritating gal that comes to my house once in a while~ intruding in my privacy and life and she doesnt even know that…
and she’s hell of a SLUT~ cos she has a bf and still getting herself a part time… hey~ so despo… feel like kicking her ass outta my house.. wonder if she has any of those dirty diseases.. and she’s using my stuff without my permission…. pissing mi off..
i dun like SLUTS AND BITCHES… can’t dey have more morals… like not getting into part time relationships… or snatching pple’s bf’s or taking other’s bf’s as their part time.. juz bcos their full time is busy… dun they tink of the other gal’s misery.. they are building their happiness on other pple’s misery…
on wed, i went for spa with my fren. wah~ the feeling is great man~ except that my shoulder is still aching away~ mayb i’ll sign up for the package and go every month since its so good.
Oh yah~ easterday my office shifted and we unpacked till abt seven den knockoff.. most of the things have already been unpacked. i’m so happy. cos now we have shifted nearer to my house, its onli 10mins bus journey. wahaha~ and also.. every afternoon there’s an ice-cream man.. so i can eat ice- cream everyday.. and also my place is so cosy… ~haha~ cos all the stuff i need is juz next to mi.~
todae’s my official off day, meaning my boss gave me one day leave. good rite? cos we’re relocating tml to the new office.. so he gave mi one and a half day off… yeah~!~
later i’m gng spa with my fren, den followed by shopping and high tea… woah~ last but not least mambo night… cos tml i onli need to report work at noon time..
i cant wait for the office to relocate. cos its shifting nearer to my house. and also my colleagues can send mi home after work.. cos my house is along the road to cte… yippie~
