wah ~!~ sian~!~ juz finish studying dunno whether can pass or not.. hopefully the lecturer dun set too tricky qns or my answers can manage to smoke the way thorugh..~LOL~

back to the topic abt my GM. i wan to clarify the point dat i dun tink so great abt RJC and NUS. it’s after all onli a sch to study in. nothing proud of. We study in order to ultimately land in a good career. how well u study does not equate u with a good career. juz like if u dun study well, but is good at working? or if u study well, but den u dunno how to work? as in put wat u learn into practice? At the end of the day, no one can say which one is better off? rite?

我只觉得，有能力供自己读书，又能考到scholarship or awards 的人我才会觉得他们很能干。不然他们的full time 是读书。理所当然考好成绩。不然他们在作设么？没设了不起的。

如果你觉得 this is impossible~!~ 那你就错了。我看过了realli capable 人，能考很好也能做工很出色。~事在人为啊~！~

I’m so angry with my GM todae. @#*@#*@#*@#* F***~!~

His daughter study NUS, RJC. den surely study very hard meh…. i study SIM den very easy meh~!~ wat the F***~!~ We also have to study lor… Moreoover they onli need to study, dun need to work, dun need to worry abt loan, living expenses.~!~ I have to study, work, worry abt cpf education loan, ntuc loan, and living expenses.. WHO THE HELL IS GOING TO HELP MI~!~ I NOT LIKE THEM GOT A EGO DAD TO PAY FOR DEM. of cos dey got more time to study lah… so wat the big F*** with RJC? or rather his daughter in RJC or NUS? plenty of other pple also there wat.~!~  i also got a lot of frens in RJC and NUS.

i juz cant stand him~!~ he know i going to take exams… damm~!~ create more problems, for mi. dunno whether he purposely do things wrongly. den make mi havew to correct so many times. have u ever heard that an invoice needs 5 cheques to be cancelled in order to make the correct payment.~!!~ and its not my fault… its his~!~ make mi have to issue cheque and cancelled cheque~!~ damn~!~ and a word of sorry also dun have…~!~

now i cant finish all my work today. and i cant take off tomolo.~!~

I juz got told off by my boss… but haha~ its ok… he juz said i shouldnt have been eating cup noodles.. should tell him to bring food back for mi..

i feel so fortunate here, cos my colleagues are nice to mi.. buy lunch for mi, driving mi home after work.

but i’m so tired.. tired of studying.. i’m still stuck at macro 2. and i’m not clear between what keynesian, monetarist, classical?? duh~ y dun dey let us learn and study different models den write out our own models… at least i can write one.. Florence model. y recession prolong? y wages and prices are sticky… i KNOW~!~ but dun ask mi to remember other pples school of thought when i smart enough onli to remember MINE. ~!~ ~LOL~

today is the 3yr 3 mths anniversary~ haha~ but i doubt that idiot will remember… hmm….

anyway, i’m still trying very very hard *believe mi k* to bury myself into the books. but den lei.. as usual as i’m trying to listen to wat the angel is saying… i’ll be dragged by satan to the comp and type here…. haha~

i’m supposed to complete at least macro notes today… hmm… toking abt the progress…. it seems rather slow.. mayb i’m too tired.. darned.. should have taken alternate offday instead…  my brain’s going to overflood. the onli things i can remember is what vehicles, wat make/ model, wat the rental rate, wats the excess. wat’s the workflow for buying a car, getting release letter, getting logcard, collection of vehicle, delivery of vehicle, generating invoice for rental and deposit, without gst… blah blah blah… all about work… and its so full and its stuck into my brain that i cant seem to empty any out for my macro and risks… damn…~!~

But today’s a good one. cos i woke up morn to check my mail. and saw a msg in friendster. all the while i feel kinda bad that things have to work out to that extent. but now i can finally heave a sigh of relief. cos we’ve kinda cleared the misunderstanding. at times i realli feel guilty and bad.. arh~ but all’s over.. tomorrow’s a better one.. opps~ should say nov 2nd after 5pm will be the best one~ ~lol~

Adieu~my frens~ :’p

I’m bored. alone in the office again. wat a nice environment to study… haha~ but i juz cant get down to studying.  Cos i’m too distracted. too many things to tink abt. and the major thing is COE prices dropped, meaning my mitsubishi lancer sports is onli 47k after discount.. hiak hiak… it becomes so much more affordable. if onli i dun have so many liabilities. i guess i would have to start clearing some of my liabilities before adding more… but i’m so tempted.. maybe beginning of next yr.. haha~ but i havent got my license also.. so no rush~ can buy for my dad to drive mi arnd.. even better…

now the most impt thing is my exams.. but i’m so tired.. my brain so tired.. after studying nothing goes in.. like wasting time reading alphabets.  can someone help mi sit for my exams~?~!~?~ if only can~ please someone save mi~!~

Last night i was reading the chinese papers, struggling to find out the contents of an article which caught my attention. although i still can read and understand the words but the reading speed was so slow that i took abt 20 minutes to complete whereas it’ll prob take mi 10mins in english. anyway my main purpose in talking about this is because of the article. based on my understanding~ *i dunno if i did intepret any wrongly* its about a woman who commited suicide wif the two children. i realli feel very sad that her life ended this way. Which makes mi think if i will walk down the same path.  I used to tink things very simple. if two pple love each other and be together, den get married, have a happy family and den grow old together. But its either things that happen in reality showing in front of mi that wakes mi up or its the environment that is changing. Y are there so many divorces in this generation? isit bcos its very cheap to get married. juz have to pay a nominal fee.  How nice if everyone has a fairytale relationship. without hurting anyone. Her husband betrayed her, leading to her death. Why did her husband betray her? y do couples nowadays take relationship so lightly? Yes it may not be a commitment to settle down in future. but i dun tink that without that commitment you can hurt other pples feelings. I tink wat a fren told mi, enlightened mi in that perspective. and the reason is GREED. u are not satisfied with wat u already have and in fact u wan to pursue something else better or u want to have more then wat u have.. which means two- or three or multiple timing pple. but y haven these pple wake up from their senses, in ur pursue in greed u might have already hurt pples feelings. i tink my thoughts here are so disorganized. but i dun tink it matters cos i juz write it to say wat i feel. haha~

If guys were to say we woman have the tempraments of weather then i would have think that they were excluding their own species too..

In my last update, i was talking of that guy showing indifference to our relationship. but den, recently he’s been treating mi nicely. now~ tok abt weather~ Sigh~ i juz cant understand him..

Anyway I juz hate October. cos days go by so fast, and i still havent prepare for my two exam papers. I juz hate studying~

but i’m looking forward to year end~ becos i’m waiting for my pay rise~!~ haha~ hopefully can increase to my desired amount. den i can buy car ~yeah~!~ Mitsubishi Lancer.~!~