Are you wondering y today’s title is ~The End~? I’ve decided to realli let go and end everything this morning, as i msged him the last time. My tears for him will also drop the last time. NEVER~!~ NEVER~!~ AGAIN~!~ I’ve said before. i’ll never look back again to a failed relationship. Esp one that i’ve realli put a lot of heart and effort into keeping it. I tink i’ve already all that i can do.
I may not be a perfect gf, i know it. I have my own shortcomings. But who will not have? I should no longer persist and hold on, to a person who can’t take my shortcomings.
When I saw him cry for me the once and only time, I thought that he has really loved me. I thought he’ll never cry, or at least not for mi. When he held mi and cry, i was so shocked. But it’s only a dream, one that i have to wake up eventually from.
But since I tink I should learn to let go, I’ve already decided and I will never look back anymore. I will learn to find a person who can take my shortcomings, and most importantly cherish me for all i’ve done and sacrificed. I will treat this as a nightmare, that took me three and a half years to wake up from. I believe in time to come, I will find my own true happiness.
So to my best fren, thanx for hearing mi cry throughout the nite and being there for mi. I realli thank you for being there when i couldnt find anywhere to cry~ Thanz for giving mi the support to stand up again from this fall. I promise you, I’ll never shed a tear for him again~!~
Bleh~ i’m back at work today…. haha~ puzzled you?
Well i was sick over the weekend. went under the rain three times on fri. had fever by the time i reached home. by sat, i dragged myself to the doctor. By the time the doc took the temperature, it was already 39.2 degrees. The doctor wrote on the MC 39.2 Degrees. HIGH FEVER… ~LOL~
I thought i needed days to recover from this high fever.. but den surprisingly i recovered by sun morn.. Maybe bcos he came over to accompany mi. I shall emphasize on the word ACCOMPANY~LOL~ cos all he did was only accompany mi, never take care of mi wo~!~ but den nevertheless i tink tt was the best he could do. and i appreciate that.
BTW~!~ iTink God realli answers prayers. cos he answered my prayer for $$. Another money spinning lobang realli dropped from heaven. Realli muz thank God. And I thought HE will only answer spiritual needs not monetary ones. Maybe he was free on that day i prayed? ~LOL~ Lame arh~?~ it was onli said to make u laugh~!~ So u better do so k~?~
I shall log off can eat my instant noodles for lunch le~
