I obtained this article from my colleague’s wedding~ pretty true and interesting~ so i share with u all, those in marriage and in love~ or in search of the one~

RULES FOR A HAPPY MARRIAGE

1. Never both be angry at the same time

2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.

3. If one of you has to win an argument, let it be your mate.

4. If you have to criticize, do it lovingly.

5. Never bring up mistakes of the past.

6. Never go to sleep with an argument unsettle.

7. Neglect the whole world rather than each other.

8. At least once everyday try to say one kind of complimentary thing to your life’s partner

9. When you have done something wrong, be ready to admit it and ask for forgiveness.

10. It takes two to make a quarrel and the one in the wrong is the one who does most talking

AN EVERLASTING RELATIONSHIP

If you’re not married yet, share this with a friend.  If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couple and An African proverb states, " Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don’t let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs.

Keep your eyes open, and don’t fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren’t really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws, vunerablilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious.

If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you’ve got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you.

You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weakness, and strengths.  Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other?

Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each toehr, compare and control?

What do you bring to the relationship?

Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain? you can’t take someone to the altar to alter him or her.  You cant make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you won’t find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain.

Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are the ingredients of a thriving, helathy, loving, and lasting relationship!

Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are the reasons to be in a relationship.

What keeps a relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humour, sharing household tasks, some getaway time without business or children and dialy exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note.)

Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send a nice email.  Sharing common goals and interests.  Growth is important.

Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure.

Allow your mate to have outside interest.  You cant always be together.  Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment.

Dont try to control one another. Learn each other’s family situation.  Respect his or her parents regardless.  Dont put pressure on each other for material goods. 

Remember for richer or poorer.

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as rensentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

The difference between "United" and "Untied" is where you put the "i"

Hopefully tt each and everyone that read this article will gain and have a happy marriage or relationship~ good luck~!~

hey~ it’s 2006 le~ haha~ morn~ everyone~ or will u guys be reading this ili at noon time~ sigh~

Yesterday went to werk as usual in the morn~ and den after dat i left the office abt 11plus with raymond to run errands~ haha~ and learn how to wipe cars haha~ he was saying "gal, muz learn how to wipe cars, next time den can wipe the cars in our yard when u’re bored ok~?~" haha~ even he knows i’m bored alone in the office~ it’s always endless conversations when i’m the in car with raymond~ haha~ perhaps we both belong to the talkative non-stop type~?~ LOL anyway by the time we washed the cars, we headed down to tanjong pagar where the wedding was held, but den hey~ it was onli 12.30 and the reception starts at one~ lol~so raymond and i were tinking wat to do when, he gave up and decided to do and pump his petrol~ but it juz rained finished there mah~ so got those little puddles of water on the road~ and den he drived realli realli slowly across the puddles of water.. and the funniest part was the pedestrains tt waited to cross the road was like staring at him.. y is he driving so slowly kinda look~ so funny~ haha~

den we waited for the rest of the colleagues to arrive before gg in together~ wah~ the deco was like to nice and intricate~ well… pretty much like malay wedding~ which it was~ and dey got this articles on rules for a happy marriage and maintaining relatiohships~ den raymond took it and shove it into mi~ "nah~!~ ah gal~ u need this~ dun blind bat choose wrong guy~!~" haha~ it was the first time i attended a malay wedding~ so to mi it was so interesting~ haha~ did i mention the bride looked so pretty tt day~ she look so sweet~ no wonder pple say gals look prettiest on their wedding day~ haha~ mayb bcos dey feel that dey have found happiness~?~ lol~ and of cos the groom was also very happy~ tok abt pre wedding jitters~ haha~ he was like toking to mi the past few days and asking mi how… he’s gng to get married~ haha~ so happy tt another couple is happily married~and gng to start another chapter in life~

Since i was at tanjong pagar, i went to chinatown to meet a fren.  Didnt realli wanted to meet up with him… but den doesnt seem good if i dun go and see him… bleh~ but anyway, i went down to find him, and….. to my surprise, he wanted to pass mi christmas present~ bleh~ i thanked him for it, and went off to take bus down to parkway~ on the bus, he smsed mi to unwrapped the present.. to my greater surprise.. or shld i say shock~ he got mi an LV bag~ OMG~!~ i’m so shocked he will spend tt money~ oh my… its too expensive for mi to accept~ sigh~ but he didnt want to take it back~ sigh~

I went down roxy to find my frens there.. haha~ everyone went OMG~!~ when dey saw my hairstyle~ haha~ the concierge guys, the bead staff at level two, the feast guys at level three, plus banquet pple at level four~ haha~ den mike’s reaction was the biggest~ can die laughing if u guys saw his reaction~ he was asking mi wad happened to u~?~ haha~ anyway.. he say this hairstyle nice~ i look like doll doll.. perhaps even more so bcos yesterday i did a doll doll make up~ haha~ mike asked mi to go back hotel, for countdown, he’ll waive off the entrance charge for all my frens~ sigh~ but den.. sigh~

anyway, it was pouring when i left roxy, i went down to east coast. met my bro, and i met a fren~ long time nvr see him le, tink the last time was two years ago, at my 21st bdae~ haha~ he said always ask mi out also got a lot of excuses, haha~ typical virgo mah~ if we dun like the person, we’ll keep a distance~ haha~ mean of mi rite~?~ its called… avoiding misunderstanding by not giving false hope~ agree with mi~?~ lol

Anyway~ cos the floor was so wet after the rain, i couldnt make my way down to bedok jetty~.. tot of cycling but den i not feeling well lor~ aiyah~ walk also cannot go, cycle also cannot cycle down~ sigh~ y rain~?~ sigh~ sian~ muz find another day to go down east coast again~ maybe to walk my dog too~?~ haha~ oh yah~ i lied to my fren~ haha~ actually not my fault lei~ aiyah~ long story.. dun wanna tok abt it le~

den i went to play pool~ yeah~ i cleared.. 5balls with one cue~ haha~ soon.. i will perfect my accuracy to one cue clear all.. yeah~ and also i managed to hit double~!~ yeah~!~ double~ haha~ but i know my pool is not as good as before le~ so long nvr play le~ but nvr mind~ i gng to buy a pool table put at home and play.. heehee~ played quite long abt 3 hrs bah~ haha~ den went to makan dinner at parkway~ KFC~!~ yeah~!~ zinger burger meal~ i realised dat i got the same eating habit as my bro~ the way we eat.. almost identical ar~ lol~

anyway, after dat headed down to clarke quay~ went to settler’s cafe to find frens, den walked to raffles mrt~ and supposed to meet my meiz go momo~ and den~!~ OMG~!~ hp low batt… and i couldnt recall her hp no.. i onli remember the first four digits.. die~ and the hp juz wouldnt switch on~ bleh~!~ it was juz 10 pm onli… wat to do~?~ in the end i headed home to recharge my hp batt~ sigh~ den my hp starting ringing non-stop~ lots of places to go. got pple gng momo, mos, zouk, black,eski, o bar, dbl o, dxo… by rite, can go club hopping~ but den again~ damn~ hp low batt lar~ how to go out~?~ later i left stranded no where~ sian~

so went my house downstairs lor, got countdown party in serangoon wo~ and also got fireworks lei~ hahaha~ and i met an old fren~ lost contact for so long le~ den sat down to chat~ tok abt lots of stuff… career, studies relationship~ bleh~ didnt i juz say i wun tink abt this stuff~?~ bleh~ life is juz too contradicting~ i didnt want to be a good gf or a good wife to be~ i didnt want any one to like mi bcos of this, and find tt in the end wat dey like is the ideal dream, and not like mi~ sigh~ but he said, if i keep protraying the image of a playful and materialistic gal~ i will onli attract the wrong guys and deter the good ones~ but den.. this also wrong, dat also cannot.. den how~?~ sigh~ guys demself are contradicting anyway, dey want a playful gf, yet a domestic wife~ bleh~ u tink lei~?~ anyway~ our conversation on relationship ended with both of us on opps sides~ juz couldnt agree on the same things.. diff views bah~

went home, my mum started toking again~ oh my..~ abt marriage and stuff.. bleh~ juz wanted to hid in my blanket and be deaf~ sianz~ argh~~… dun pressure mi~~~~~ i’m still young~ onli 24 mah~ sigh~~~~~~ although got times i would like someone to be with mi, but den.. sigh~ dun wanna tink abt tt either.. skip~!~ next~

sch’s starting soon, supposedly will be busy with sch, new yr stuff and new house deco~ i will have to concentrate on all these~ pple~ dun worry~ i promise if the rite person appear i will cherish the chance… but provided the person ask mi la~ haha~ anyway~ played enough~ i’ve shopped, played pool, had coffee sessions, met up with some frens~ gained back pretty much friendships~ long lost ones since i was with him~ cos he didnt like my frens, and dey didnt like him either~ sigh~ i sacrificed so much to be with him, in the end i’m almost left with nothing~ at least i managed to gain back some friendships~ which isnt a bad thing after all~ i dunno if i should be happy or sad~ everyone’s happy that i broke off with him already~ sigh~ i couldnt find one tt say the opps~ will u~?~ anyway~ no programs today~ but i’ll still go out~ prob shop alone~ lazy to contact pple to go out with mi~ prob bcos i’m afraid of rejections~ haha~ and den… tml i gng KTV yeah~!~ i gng to shing shong~ sing song~ yeah~ i tink i should have played enough to settle down and study when sch starts~ haha~ onli regret is yesterday hp low batt.. den didnt managed to go clubbing~ wanted to drink and dance like crazy~!~ sigh~ but den…. never mind~ life is full of regrets~!~

PART two~:

didnt want to blog de.. but den i’m so terribly bored~ haha~ sorri guys~ i’m downloading the O2 jam game so that i can play with my darling lar~ den i tink she already start playing le.. nvr msg mi.. leave mi alone to wait for the program to dl.. and it takes abt 2hrs.. now left with half an hour~ sigh~ not many pple online to tok to mi.. i’m so bored.. oh yah.. juz now brought my parents to suntec city shopping and makan~ die le~ broke le.. btw i saw the singapore mint exhibition, tinking of buying the gold dog and put in my new house~ i gng to see fengshui for my new house~ heehee… ever since working in this company, i start to appreciate fengshui le~ oh yah~ i most prob gng to buy another comp.. but i dunno if i should buy a laptop betta or a desktop. bleh~ i’m so lost when it comes to pc stuff.. anyone good at looking pc stuff~?~ can go with mi shop for pc~?~ oh yah.. juz now saw an ipod case, i’m gng to plan to buy tt.. and i saw an ipod speaker, radio which is portable~ haha~ another thing to buy~ sigh~ hmm… i’m still planning how to deco my room~ i’m waiting for my best fren to pass mi the deco magazines.. hmm… mayb one of these days i will camp at the library to snag a few good ideas~?~ hmm.. weekend muz go walk walk and look at furniture also.. hmmm… who’s free to accompany mi lei~?~ hmm…. anyway.. juz now was toking to my fren, he was trying to persuade mi to do a photoshoot assignment bcos last time i reject him cos i got bf mah.. den i scared my bf not happy… den now lei~ supposedly can do le… but den i feel the eagerness gone le~ aiyah~ dilemma again~ sianz~ its like last time i went for the air stewardess interview, but den now if to go again.. i will feel very reluctant to go down~ sigh~ tink i feel too old le~ and new year is coming~ shucks~ i hate it… everyone will onli compare this and that.. i’m so tired of it… hide at home.. dng nothing for three days or rather four days is a pretty sad thing~ I HATE CHINESE NEW YEAR~!~ sigh~

Should i be happy or sad today ne~?~ was pretty upset last nite~ cos i couldnt go mambo le~  tot i wun have any plans fer the new year~ sigh~ but felt much better after watching "a tall story" with my bro~ its such a lame and lamer show abt Journey to the west characters~ haha~ nearly died laughing and rolling around~ felt much better after tt..

yeah~ my parents already planning where to paktor last nite~ openly discussing in front of mi and leaving mi out~!~ :’( sigh~ not onli frens favour relationship over frens~ my parents also the same~

and not to mention my bro also got programs for the nite~ everyone’s leaving mi in the lurch~ ooooo~~~ so sad~ but its ok.. its the end of the year~

which also means todae i’ve gotten my bonus and salary~ yippeee~!~!~!~!~!~

Yeah~!~ i gng to Expo for Zouk Mambo nite~!~ haha~ its been so long since i went Mambo nite~ i tink the last time i went was when my boss gave mi off day bcos office gotta relocate.. and tt was somewhere in sept~ haha~ tot it’ll until chinese new yr b4 i can go mambo nite~ haha~ yeah… so happy~

i’ve been very happy from yesterday~ to keep u guys updated, my appeal for results were SUCCESSFUL~!~ yeah~ i passed~ and so therefore, instead of retaking four subjects, i onli had to retake 3. Which means that my sch fee will be adjusted from $4,900 to $3,675~ Yeah~!~ lucky got enough money to pay sch fees.. but den lei.. means CNY i have to stay in Spore. cannot escape anywhere lei~ *sob* *sob* but den lei, it also means less lessons for mi to attend~ and more life~ haha~ i’ll be studying from January3-6, 11-14, 23-26. Feb to march i’ll be studying every tues, thurs and sat~ so u guys know when to find mi ar~ I’m so so happy~ cant contain my happiness.. been hopping arnd the office~ lucky the office onli left my boss~ haha~ he was saying i so easily contented~ a little bit of thing happy until hopping and bouncing arnd~ haha~ i bring laughter and energy to the office the wo~ LOL~ *very not shy hor~?~*

I told my jie abt my plans~ haha~ den she dun agree with my plan~ so i share with u all~ tink most pple already know abt it le anyway~ hehe~ see ar~ my plan is date for 5 yrs, den get married and have er ren shi jie for 2 yrs, after 7 yrs(which guys so happen to be so prone to the 7 yr itch) den i shall have kids.~ but den lei~ after age of thirty i dun wan to have kids le~ haha~ so lei~ work backwards and den it means 30-7=23. haha~ means its time for mi to settle down with the right guy~ haha~ and 2005 is ending~ so the end is ~ most prob i not having children le~ which means~ i wun be getting married~ haha~ yeah~!~ since den~ i shall not tink abt relationships~ neither will i consider anyone~ after 2005 after tml~ haha~ den it will be Single WAN SUI~!~ yeah~ haha~ so understandably, my frens are getting worried for mi~ but den~ haha~ i’m fine wo~

I will onli like someone until end of this yr~ after tt lei~ i wun even give a thought abt it anymore~ dun say mi wo~ i know my meiz say i very negative thinking in relationships~ but den been hurt so much already, i no longer hold high hopes abt relationships, and guys~ its so hard to find a good partner~ almost every guy will stray~ and den ultimately its the gf crying alone while the guy is enjoying himself. its juz not fair to us~ y muz we women be the one crying~?~ And i juz read a sis’s blog~ she’s crying again~ she wrote~ as a woman, deeply in love, we can onli choose to sacrifice~ either the love or our tears~ yes~ tt’s it~ its either one, but both choices will still leave us hurt~ a wound that can nvr be healed~ and i can understand it juz too well~ the type of heart pain~ the tears tt drop uncontrollably~ why muz it be we tt bear the pain~ y muz we close both eyes to such incidents~ y muz dey lie to us~ there’s nvr been a truthful sentence from dem~ when dey like u, dey say, u’re the perfect gf, perfect wife i’m looking for. but when dey’re sick of the relationship, dey can say, bcos u’re too perfect~ or bcos i fell in love with the perfect gf dream~ but dere’s no feelings~ wat other alternative are we left with except a broken heart~?~ He can even say, i know u’re a good gf, good wife-to-be, i even know tt i will regret letting u go~ but yet~ he will still do so~ i tink he juz loves to regret~ Enough is enough~ i shall not land myself in such a situation ANYMORE~!~

anyway i’m fine~ later i’ll be gng out shopping with my best fren~ haha~ it’s again~!~ been spending much recently~ die~!~ muz control myself b4 i become like last time… spend money like water~

Sian~ juz toking abt gng to expo~ den great~!~ pple are gng MOS, Momo, Eski, weddings, East coast camping~!~ but no one’s gng to expo~!~ bleh~!~ will it realli end up i go alone~sigh~ but go alone not fun de~ sigh~

sian~ stay at home le lah~ but den my dad’s off tml, he go pak tor with my mum, my bro paktor with his gf.. den die~!~ i can home alone le~!~ damn~!~ sigh~ aiyah~ take flu tablet and count down in my sleep better~ got my sweet dreams to accompany mi~!~ oh yah~ still got my dog~ heehee~ so i’m not home alone~ yeah~!~ lucky i got a dog to accompany me~!~ yeah~!~ life is not tt bad after all~

hopefully year 2005 will come to an end soon~ real fast~

i wanna start a new year with onli happiness and joy, there will be no more tears and troubles anymore~

Todae actualli wanted to go MOS~ but den end up meetin my meiz instead~ we had dinner at bubble tea house~ the food still as nice as when i was in sec sch~ but den the milk tea was so diluted~ bleh~!~ so hard to find nice bubble milk tea le~

den i went to buy my office stationeries at popular, and den bought household items.. and i was telling my meiz~ i gng to buy toilet cleaner~ so she asked mi.. got employ pple in ur office to clean toilet one ar~ haha~ so i replied~ of cos have~!~ MI lor~!~ haha~ i’m admin, cum secretary, cum house keeper, cum event organiser, cum mamasan~ haha~!~ do u tink i’m jokin~?~ i’m not lor~!~ it’s REAL~!~

i bought two cross stitch wo~ one for my hp and one is cushion for my new house. i got take photo.. haha~ share with u all~

my hp pouch picture~winnie the pooh wif piglet~ haha~

my cushion~ is precious moments

This is the new shoes tt i bought, nice or not lei~?~ onli $19 lei~

next few days will probably be the last few days i’m blogging~ i gng to start sch and start studying le~ and i found something else to do at werk, beside playing yahoo pool and blogging.. i gng to do my cross stitch~

This cumin sat is my colleague’s wedding~ all my colleagues are married.. the last available guy is the groom for this sat… and after dat.. i’ll be the onli single and AVAILABLE person in the office~ haha~ but dat’s not the point.. de point is everyone is gng with their partners, but now i no bf.. how~?~ oh no~!~ my colleague say if i dun drag i guy down with mi, den he’ll bar mi from entry~ bleh~!~so mean of him rite~?~LOL~

and den still got countdown~ wat shall i do on dat day~ still got no concrete plans~ am i gng to be dateless on dat day and rot at home~?~ its gng to be awkward to go out alone dat day~ esp if its gng to be so pack everywhere~ sigh~

Early in the morn~ situation occured in the office … …

lizard spotted on the bonnet of Hyundai Matrix… … and it a BLACK lizard~

haha~ den mi, raymond and jason was so busy trying to get the lizard off the car~ but to no avail~ in the end, it hid under the wiper~ haha~ but no worries~ cos the car is now on short term rental~ yeah~!~ no lizards for mi to catch le~ :p

Den came meeting~ tok abt nxt yr stuff~ i called everyone into the office~ onli 5 pple ok~?~ haha~ den we sat down and wanted to start meeting when my boss said~ lets start discussing why florence got nobody send flowers to her already~ izzit bcos now she keep forgetting to comb hair before cumin to werk~?~ *faint* can u imagine something so lame from my boss~?~ haha~

Anyway pay rise and bonus was declared le~ finally~ after the long wait~ and its… one month bonus~ and 6.66% increment~ for mi lah~ haha~

I went to meet my jie for lunch at her work place~ wanton mee~ my favourite~ esp so bcos its fried~ i miss st nick’s wanton~ haha~ Chinese new year go back see teachers den muz go and makan all the food in st nick’s~ haha~ den after lunch actually wanted to take bus back.. but den the wind so strong~ so i decided to walk back~ haha~ dun exclaim~ its small case onli~ i always walk home to accompany my mum for lunch den walk back. haha~ i love to walk~ walk and enjoy the wind~ best is the time i walk from east coast mac to bedok jetty~ wah~ enjoy the wind and sit there tok to my fren~ haha~ best date~ though in the end i found the guy not suitable for mi~ haha~ he muz have suffered walking tt distance with mi~ am i mean~?~ haha~ no lah~ i help him exercise lei~

I asked everyone to go MOS tonite~ cos i wanna play and meet up with everyone b4 my sch starts~ u know lah~ sch start le~ i gng to be little bookworm~ have to study le~ this time no more distractions~!~ i’m going to score 4 High Distinctions~!~ i’m going to get the Merit Degree to show my mum~!~ haha~ i wan her to be proud of her capable daughter~!~ yeah~!~ besides~ today dunno tml things~ maybe tml i already not around~?~ maybe tml my illness have relapse and i end up in the hospital again~?~ so the magic word is "cherish" cherish the time u have, cherish the people arnd you, cherish wat u have.

Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, but the satisfaction of what you own~!~ yeah~!~ Live your life to the fullest~!~ and die with no regrets~ haha~ dun k mi ok~?~ its true~

SianZ~ bored~ alone in the office again~ so no need to act busy le~ :p.. opps~!~ did i say act busy~?~ no lah~ i was realli busy juz now~ and will be later..~ have to prepare payments and invoices for the rest of the week..~ i prefer to always do finish my work at the beginning of the week.. den rot and rot the rest of the week~

i tink i’ll be lunching alone today again~ wat else is new~?~ sigh~ i tink its instant noodles for lunch again bah~ so lazy to walk out and makan~ esp when its to makan alone ~ sigh~

didnt sleep well last nite~ or rather should say.. i rolled around on the bed from 10pm all the way to 12plus before i fell asleep. i tink i’m getting insomia~ and i dunno y~?~

I recieved results of my appeal to study part-time~ its approved~ and the time table *sucks~!~* ARGH~!~!~!~!~!~ i’ll be in clementi most days of the week… including sat~!~ OMG~!~ my lesson on weekdays are from 7-10. by the time i end work and rush to sch~ the lesson is abt to start, so cant have my dinner~ by the time i end lesson, its 10pm, by the time i snail home by bus, its already 11pm. after shower and stuff. its already 11.30 den i can have my dinner~ which so happens that i’m not supposed to sleep rite after eating~ or i’ll have indigestion~ so i will suffer from indigestion and gastric~ help~!~ give mi a wall to BANG into~!~ And my fren is so interesting.. know wat she suggested~?~ hey~!~ come over my house stay lah~!~ i stay at clementi~!~ u can sleep over at my house~~ pretty good idea rite~?~ but den~ the next morning i working at tai keng court~ which means i still have to travel dat super long distance back~ and she couldnt drive mi to work either~ cos she’s working at tuas, we’re working at opps end of the island~ OMG~!~ and there’s also sat lor~ i work till 1pm. My lesson start from 2-5… another meal to skip~ argh~!~ and i have to suffer and suffer till apr next yr~!~ damn~!~ but i have to endure and endure~ y is my path of life so unsmooth~ bleh~ :’( i feel so tired~ cos i feel so alone, working so hard, struggling so hard to achieve my mum’s dream of having a graduate child~ achieve her dream of having holidays~ achieve her dreams of staying in a big house~ bleh~!~ and my bro’s not lending a helping hand~ if onli he can manage to feed himself. it’ll be like thank god~!~ sigh~ i need a shoulder to cry on le~!~ *sob* *sob*

to escape from reality and make myself happier or appear happier each day is so tiring~ i tink i’m suffering from depression soon~ prob i’ll be the next one admitted to IMH~!~ i tink my god sis say something very true~ i need a bf to give mi the emotional support to carry on~ so letting go of tt person is correct. cos he nvr gives mi emotional support~ onli adds on to my emotional stress~

Feel like gng clubbing every nite, and drinking~ another sign of emotional depression~?~ i said feel like onli, but i wun do so lah~ juz like i feel like lighting up a cig  and smoke away all troubles~ but den i cant~ cos i’ve been lecturing all my little bros to quit smoking~ arh~!~ its juz like a lot of .. i feel like doing, but den cannot do~!~ cos its not rite lah, not good lah~!~ bleh~!~ so tiring~ like i feel like getting married now and have a loving husband to take care of mi~ but den cannot la~ bcos the rite guy havnt appear~ and i cant give my lifelong happiness away juz bcos of a moment of "i want" and so the diamond ring is nvr worn~  yeah~ i rejected a diamond ring~ r u tinking i’m stooopid~?~ i tink so too~ sigh~ many of my bros all tink i’m still very naive to tink tt i should choose love over bread~ actualli ok lah~ i nvr regretted rejecting it~ am i self deluding myself~?~ no lah~

There seems to be a lot of stuff to do, but den like too little time~ bleh~ gotta shop for new yr stuff, den home sutff at the same time~ and den shuttle the long distance between home-work-sch-home~ sigh~ i’m SO TIRED~!~ i tink if GOD ask mi if i’m willing to go his paradise now i will gladly say I DO ~!~ give my life to someone else who will enjoy it more den mi~!~ now do u realise i have suicidal tendency as well~?~ its onli a symptom of depression~ dun worry lah~ i wun commit suicide~ i’m so scared tt i’ll be punished~ yah~ i’m so scared of this and that.. this and that… so i’ve nvr done anything for myself.. or should i say done anything correct for myself~ the onli thing i’ve done against everyone’s wishes was to be with Him~!~ trying to act smart lor~ believe in love~ in the end~ i’m become the fool everyone predicted~ fool of 3yrs~ where got someone so dumb~?~ sigh~ i tink the mensa test not accurate~ i where got so high IQ~?~ where got spore top 1%~?~ sigh~ sigh~and sigh~ DEPRESSION~ REFLECTION~ STRESS~= TOTALLY UPSET~

没有爱的日子是无趣，

拥有爱的日子是悲伤。

爱上一个人如此甜蜜却又让人受伤。

放弃一个人如此难过却又让人心碎。

珍惜身旁的每一个人，不要等到失去了

才了解到遗憾和后悔是如此痛苦。

我在期待着我的真命天子。

期待着他一心一意来珍惜我

期待着他一心一意来疼我

期待着他一心一意来爱我

期待着他来填补我心中的空虚

期待着他来让我对爱情恢复信心。

Don’t say I love you

If you never meant what you say.

Don’t hold my hand

If you plan to let go one day.

Don’t say you will always be there for me

If you ever plan to leave.

Don’t make me fall deeply in love with you

If you never meant to catch my fall.

Don’t give me empty promises of love

If you will never fulfill them.

Don’t break my heart

If you are not there to pick it up.

Got woken up by a series of sms bombing~ my god-sis said she didnt want to wake mi up with her phone call~ but it doesnt make a big diff my dear~ u know i nvr off my hp when i sleep. and the msg ringtone is exactly the same as the hp ringtone k~ sigh~ but i should understand her excitedness.  Her precious darling proposed to her last nite~ feel so happy that she can finally envision her dream of 幸福小家庭.  she asked mi to be her bridesmaid, sigh~ i tink i’ll never be able to get married this lifetime~ there’s this chinese superstition that u cant be a bridesmaid for more than 3 times u know~ but it doesnt matter to mi anyway~ now i gotta save for her wedding ang- bao~ my classmate was juz mentioning to mi tt day, she’s feeling the pressure cos her frens are getting married.  mi too.. i also growing old, soon i’ll be in ur footsteps~ cos its already very hard to find a good bf, moreover a good husband~ sigh~

yesterday my darling janice cut her hair fringe, now the two of us look like "qing lu" with the short fringe~ i didnt managed to meet her, cos i was not feeling well and didnt feel like getting out of the house. lucky she got webcam, so can see her.. haha~ i recalled having a webcam many years ago, so i tried fixing it.. but den, i gave up.. the program cannot sense the webcam~ sianz~ slept and watch korean drama whole of yesterday~ so bored~ i guessed my mum was happiest.~ cos i was home the whole day to accompany her watch her korean dramas.~

My dad saw this advertisement on car, he was almost on the verge of buying car~ sigh~ i also want to buy, but den… no no  cannot, cos now muz pay for new house and furniture and renovation.. muz save money~ cannot anyhow spend~ but den i wanna buy a new comp, one tt’s out of reach from my bro~ dunno how he use comp, use onli one yr, the comp already cranky. I can still use for three yrs plus b4 it broke down~ sigh~ now one comp three person share, its so difficult.  I can onli use the comp when the two of dem are sleeping~ but if i buy another one, also like waste of money, cos daytime i go to work.. will onli use it mostly during weekends~ but dun buy lei, weekends i’ll be so bored at home~ sigh~ nvr mind~ after i  move new house, i’m going to buy a pool table to put in my house~ haha~ den i can practise playing pool.. very long nvr play le, my skills are degrading~ sigh~

i cant wait for tml~ cos tml dere will be a meeting to tok abt nxt yr direction. meaning my pay rise is included.. will keep u guys updated~!~ haha~

dun wanna blog le~ since life aint tt interesting~

Hi pple, i’ve uploaded the pics~ at the my yahoo photo album.

the link is: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/florence_god_child/album?.dir=/729f