Let me write down the list of things i’m supposed to do before I forget.

Short -term

1- Finish the projects on hand and collect $$

2- Study Tests

3- Shop for furniture and new hse stuff

4- Do finish my notes for exam revision

5-Finish my cross stitch for my new pillow case

6- Still got to organise and do invitations for hse warming

Long-Term

1-Get down to book and take my advance theory

2-Get my driving license.

3-Study ACCA, followed by CFA

4- Complete my Japanese Language Course

5- Take on the cookery and baking course.

6- Perfect my pool skill to one cue clear all.. *haha*

7- Complete and Compile the songs i’ve written and composed.

8- Consolidate my drawings portfolio- i may nid it when i change line~ *haha*

9- Complete biz plan for Florence’s "dream cafe"

10- Maybe if still free and rich… den i’ll take finish my piano exams to level 8.

oh yah.. Last but not least… my planned holiday in HK  during May after results are released~ reward myself for being the stupid-no life-dumbo- bookworm for the next few months to come~

Sigh~ i tink i gng to disappear soon again ba~ no more social activities for mi… i muz muz muz not be so playful…. :’(

Been happy the past few days~!~ happily celebrating CNY~ den i itchy hand lor.. went to sms tt idiot… cos i wanted back my precious collection of CDS.. all my CDS all with him… so i asked him when will he be passing it back to mi.. tt’s all lor.. not as if i wanted to see his face…

Guess wat he replied… ok.. we’ll meet tml evening… and dats not the worst part of all.. the worst part is.. the ending where he said… i want back my MP3 cable and everything dat belongs to mi~ can u believe he can sms so harshly~

Darn~ i muz have been realli blind bat three years ago~

Since he wants everything dat belongs to him, i should give him, back his well deserved and over due - SLAP IN THE FACE~

STUPID MOOD SPOILER~!~

Hey everyone~ i’m so happy today~ well.. basically i’m happy everyday ya~?~

Woke up in the morn.. very tired… cos attended lesson last nite, den after lesson i met my fren for "dinner" haha~ came home le cant sleep… cos eat full full… den went downstairs shop wif mummy.. cos NTUC open till late late…

Anyway today din go back SNGS, cos werkin in the morn.  Haha~ went to werk late, 9.30am lor.. den my boss was sitting in front.. den he say.. "i tot u not cumin werk today le, self declare off" haha~ den me and colleagues persuaded our boss to give us half day off cos we nuaing away already.. haha~ so i got half day off today…

knocked off le.. den went to yishun find my cousins and parents. ate lunch with dem and went to shop for FLOWERS~ and my mum was saying i need to buy 桃花. hey~!~ come’on.. her daughter so attractive and kawaii… dun need 桃花 de ~

Oh ya~ i told u all i reading the book on " y men lie and y women cry" rite~?~ its realli a good book eh~ and den… its not onli on relationships, its abt understanding pple and communicating… i will post interesting quotes for u all…

e.g: A woman needs to know but one man well to understand all men; whereas a man may know all women and not understand one of them.

Women have far greater capacity for talking than men.  This explains why from a woman’s view point, men dun say much and from a man’s viewpoint, why woman nvr seem to shut up.

A female brain is organised for multi tasking, she can talk abt several unrelated topics in one conversation and use five vocal tones to change the subject or emphasise points.  Men can identify only three of these tones.  As a result, men often lose the plot when listening to woman talk.

hey pple~!~ izzit interesting~?~ haha~

haha~ met up wif my frens after werk.  And dey were saying should give mi the nick of a social chamelon.  So i updated my profile to social chamelon~

Know y~?~ read my new profile and u’ll know.. haha~ its a form of entertainment for everyone~ laugh it off by all means~

btw, started gng lec on mon for international trade, it was super super boring.  Lucky my fren accompany for lecture, but den she onli join in the 2nd half of the lec.  repeat subjects wasnt exactly interesting for the both of us.  Half bored and tired, the two of us were stoning away.

So, i skipped class yesterday not tt i intended to but was psychoed by my best fren.  Supposedly to meet at AMk, den she changed to braddell, den b4 knocking off she changed to bishan.  Know y? bcos her shoes were spoilt and she wanted to buy shoes at CK. and guess wat?the design she wanted wasnt carried by the store. Wasted trip eh… haha~ it wasnt.. cos eventually it was mi that bought shoes~ yeah~ its mi … spending again~ anyway.. its seldom tt i see a pair of shoes i like.. moreover its velvet sole, so comfortable to walk in.

Oh yah~ couldnt finish my werk yesterday, onli managed to clear it today.. after struggling through… so tired… cos have to generate invoices and print cheques… very tiring.. see computer until i see stars stars le~ too tired, so i skipped class again~ cos i dun wan to end up falling asleep in lecture. hmm… i tink shld have completed everything i shld have done le ba…

Tinking of gng MOS on fri nite and chinatown on CNY eve. hmm.. but i lazy to ask pple to go… haha~ see if anyone gng there.. den i can join in… if not i’ll rot at home…

My boss juz told mi today, friday have to werk~!~ so sad.. den i cant go back St nick’s~ *sob**sob* sian~ and wat’s worse is.. he say start werk on wed… cos he got see auspicious date de.. sianZzzz… lucky he say onli werk half day on thurs.. if not i can faint… but den ar… it means wed i cant go zouk mambo nite… or else i cant wake up for werk the nxt day… argh…. sianz~~~…. i miss mambo nite~

Tt’s all pple… my eyelids are closing… i’m gng to concussed state… good nitezZzz~

25/01/2006 23.05pm

Did i shock u all with the change in profile and silence over msn~?~ i’m sorry to have ignored everyone last nite~ nothing serious happened and i’m ok.

it’s nothing to do with relationships, its juz abt someone else.

i dun wish to tok abt tt. juz to let u all know. i’m ok~ gng bugis to shop with my meiz later, den after dat meetin my fren at cityhall in the late afternoon~ another day will pass juz as soon. and i will forget wat happened last nite~

i’m back from shopping~ shopped whole day lor.. from 2pm all the way to 9pm.. haha~ stamina very good rite~?~ but i nvr bought much~ onli hp strap and, a book~ yeah~!~ i bought a book "why men lie and women cry".  Its very interesting~ i shall update u all on it ok~?~ haha~

Anyway shopped whole day~ and forgot all the unhappy things~ no wonder pple say shopping is a form of therapy~ haha~ there’s some truth to it wo~ :p

Trying to write finish the lyrics, either command of chinese is getting worse or i’m not getting enough inspiration~

oh no~!~ i’m getting dumb and dumber~ i tink i need more self improvement~

anyway~ here’s half of the song~ feel free to help mi~ haha~ feedback are welcomed~

没有你的天气是那么的寒冷

漫天厚厚的冰雪掩盖了寂寞城市

感觉孤单就像是一根一根利针

它毫不客气的扎人，心好疼。

随手敲醒了床边那盏睡着的灯。

周围忧郁的空气有一种悲伤气氛。

让坐在冰冷房间的我回想起你。

那难以忘怀的快乐时光已消失。

寒冷取代了温软

悲伤取代了快乐

泪水取代了笑容

全取代了你

haha~ i was tokin to my fren over the phone last nite when he asked mi.. "how could u predict wat u were gng to do dec tis yr~?~" i was so baffled by his qns until he told mi.. my blog dates were wrong~ haha~ either backdated to Dec 05 or post dated to dec 06.. when actually its now Jan 06… haha~ wat was i tinking ar~?~

Anyway, i got my new hse key~ spent like 3k plus in 2 days~ cos have to pay for conveyancing fee, stamp fee, property tax, conservancy charges and feng shui consultation~ yeah~ tt spent the bulk of my remainder savings~ i’m gng to be broke~ haha~ i shall add another new goal for 2006, to find a rich husband~ actualli dun need to find, already got one~ hehe~ he say i’m the first gal to let him know how it feels to fall in love and get rejected~ well… rich guy doesnt equate to ability to make all gals fall in love wif u rite~?~ gals~?~

Anyway back to the serious topic, actualli i was planning to move in the new flat, mid march during the sch hols~ den i was tinking… y sch hols ar~?~ everyone left jc le~ wat was i tinking~?~ uni dun have march sch hols de ma~ haha~ blur sotong ~ But den we’re supposedly to move end feb latest unless extension. but have to see the feng shui master set wat date for renovation and moving hse. I will be holding hse warming party, and i’ll keep u all posted… u all muz come wo~ and bring ‘life" into my new hse de mah~ ~lol~

Two days ago, i was rummaging my cupboard for those interior magazines that i bought many years ago~ when i discovered my little diary.. haha~ u know those got the lock and key, with fairy tales characters on it de~?~ haha~ i cant find the key, so i cut over the cover… and read through it~ realli contain many memories u know~?~ childhood and teenage memories. like listening to discman during lesson, when i was actualli sitting in the front row of chinese class… and the teacher is ….. Du Lao Shi~ St nick’s pple. got recall him~?~ haha~ still remember the sticky hand~?~ i was so cheeky tt time, use the sticky hand to remove the transparency from the OHP, den when he turn around the transparency was gone le~ and den… haha~…. i also stumbled upon the poems and tots tt i penned down when i had the inspiration. poems, songs… i’m gng to find back the artistic mi, buried somewhere along the period of growing up~

My first ambition was to be a lawyer, den an interior designer, den a kindergarten teacher.. cos i love kids~ but end up… i nvr fulfilled any of my dreams~ now i understand y when i was 14, someone 24 told mi~ ambition is onli a dream… sometimes, practicality prevents u from fulfilling it~

Its been quite a few days since i blogged, supposedly full of things to tell ya~ but den.. dunno y i seem to be in a lost~ hmmm….. oh yah… i dunno if this is a good news to u all… i wanted to call him (tt guy) to take back my collection of cds in his hse.. but den all of a sudden i cant recall his phone number at all.. a number tt i used to remember clearly, dialing it every nite.. memory is fading away~ shld it be good~?~

I tot i need another 2 yrs… this time it seems pretty fast, i took like 2 mths to get over him… i broke up with darren, i took 2 yrs to forget.  Den start on another journey, which i got hurt and took another 2yrs to forget.. den started another nightmare of 3and a half… i tot it’ll be longer den 2yrs for mi to 4get the whole nightmare.  but 2mths later, i realised i’m realli happier without him.  I nvr have any sleepless nites, no more crying myself to sleep, dun need to smoke juz to numb myself, dun need to drink n forget.  Now i realli regret not heading everyone’s advice earlier and start life anew~ had hanged myself at this nightmare for very long.

i’m surprised at myself~ i tink i surprised many pple too~.. i know many pple are worried for mi~ now u all dun need to worry for mi le rite~?~ haha~

Hey everbody~!~ its mi again~!~ let mi see where i left off~ oh yah… mon afternoon kelvin came over to meet mi for lunch and let me see my investment statement. Yippee~!~ got earn money le~!~~!~!~!~ And den he sae i changed le~ prettier wo~ haha~ so happy….

After werk i met up wif my frens, Huimin, Xueni and Lihua  at bishan~ to celebrate Huimin’s bdae~ cos huimin’s having headache and taking chinese medicine, we went to eat sakae~ haha~ lots of funny conversation was exchanged~ in it includes… I HAVE CHANGED~!~ Looked younger and prettier wo~ yeah~!~ two compliments a day.. sure made my day~ haha~ den we’re laughing at huimin, cos she rebonded her hair but den it doesnt look like a good job done~ so we were busy giving her advice on how she can do her hair~ we brought her to watson and psychoed her to buy straightening cream instead ~lol~ and den dey were saying meeting up again b4 new year to do manicure~ but den ar~ is i do for dem~ haha~ French manicure wo~ haha~

oh yah we were toking abt CNY, we’re gng to each other’s house visiting. Starting from lihua hse at pasir ris, den to sengkang, den my house den to xueni’s house~ haha~ still deciding the day.  haha~ CNY got one more program le~ yeah~!~ i wun be so bored during CNY le~

Dunno when my cousins will be coming out from malaysia~ half excited to see them… the other half not~ haha~ though i like kids… but i have so many nieces and nephews.. when they all come at the same time.. my house is like super super noisy and crowded… and i’m afraid tt dey’ll spoil my precious collection of stuffs… haha~

was sick yesterday… didnt feel well… stomach not feeling so well… argh~… been asked many times by someone to go see doc.. haha~ i told him.. ~no~!~ he nearly died of exasperation~!~ oh yah~ we had an online msn debate last nite~ on shallow guys and materialistic gals~ haha~ it was so funny~ too bad.. he say cannot let mi post on my blog.. or else u all can die laughing reading the conversation log de.~

Oh yah~ my boss is gng overseas tml. will onli come back on wed~ so i shall be veri veri free… to study in the office.. or play yahoo pool~!~ yippeee~!~!~!~ oh yah~ anyone wanna buy cars~?~ juz now dey were saying COE Prices dropped le~ cat a onli 8k plus and cat b is 9k plus wo~!~ haha~ werk in this co. always got a lot of latest car info de~ so tempting~ haha~ i tink car prices are gng to drop again~ juz now went to hyundai car showroom dey having CNY promo… matrix was realli cheap u know?

Juz now i was toking to my colleagues~ den dey were saying, my thoughts, actions and views on pple are so simple and naive.. veri easy to be cheated by pple outside~ i tink so too ba~ haha~ cos i’m always easily cheated by pple~… haha~ tink i trusts pple too much le~ i too good to pple hor~?~ haha~ i tink i gng to get "k" again~ haha~ i shall not self praise myself den.. i wait for u all to praise mi den~ but den i treat u all very good rite~?~ ~lol~

btw, I still havnt caught my show~the heirloom~ bleh~ :’( i dun tink this weekend free to watch either~ sigh~ gotta springclean the house and prepare for new year~ sian~ and next week i got lesson again le~ so sian~ so sad~!~!~!~ dunno after next week will it still show in the cinema or not~

i’m back again~ in the middle of the night at 12.34am… haha~ are u wondering so latem y i still not sleepin lei~?~ haha~ cos tml i’m on half day leave~ i’m gng to collect the keys to my new house tml~ yippeeeEE~!~ hey pple.. remember muz die die find time to come my house warming in march k~?~ haha~

oh yah~ met up wif my fren juz now… shld say tt his my childhood fren~ heehee~ tink we knew each other like less den 10yrs old… haha~ how times have passed… now both of us.. old le~ aiya~ growing old is not fun de~

i’m super irritated~ as i’m clearing my friendster mailbox.. have u ever seen a person’s inbox flooded with 300+ msgs in a month~?~ and its by strangers lor~

show u guys one of this msg~ i tink u pple will also get pissed off by the guy’s mail~

dont know then go and know lah, that isnt a
problem at all. We can start as level 1 couple
where it is the get to know stage, u can take 1 mth
to know and monitor me, if good then we proceed
to further of relationship loh, so pls give each other
a chance

Can u imagine any guy toking like this~?~ dun u get pissed off~?~ and irritated~?~ how much do you know mi~?~ looks will fade as i grow old~ are u guys gng to stray den and get a divorce~?~ i simply detest guys tt are shallow~ if looks are so impt to u all in choosing a partner~ go and buy a BARBIE DOLL~!~ she will nvr turn ugly cos she wun grow old~!~ STUPID~!~ SHALLOW~!~ GUYS~!~!~!~ wake up~!~ relationships are not as simple as u tink~!~ and stop flooding my mail with such idiotic childish msgs~ it juz make mi even more pissed off~

I AM SO DAMN ANGRY~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~ARGH~!~!~!~!~!~!~

Wat the hell they tink~?~ one month probation~?~ den after pass probation den convert to full time bf with 13mth AWS and annual leave~?~ den on days u apply annual leave in advance so that u can go scandaling~?~ ar~!~wat’s on these guys minds~?~ cant guys tink more in depth then these stuff~?~ shallow guy~!~

Dun even write "am i the lucky one tt u will reply?" cos i wun reply any person stating  things like ur photo caught my attention in the gallery~!~ u tink tt i’m going to be so dumb and go "WOW~!~" i’m so honoured tt i caught ur eye~?~ i tink u can go and bang into the wall inSTEAD~!~ another stupid guy~!~

Another lamer wrote, " i seldom log into friendster. it muz have been fate, tt i saw ur pic~" know where’s the mistake~?~ iz the word pic… if i put the picture of an old ugly woman… would tt idiot still believe in fate~?~

Morn~!~ i typed my blog finish le~ den i deleted and retyped again~ anyway, yesterday i went to werk as usual, knocked off le. den went amk to meet my meiz and headed to sch for lesson~ managed to have a quick lunch, although i was so hungry in the midst of lecture. Yah my meiz attended lec with mi, haha~ can u imagine an engineering student attending a risk management lec~?~ haha~ can see tt she’s trying very hard to understand how bonds werk and it’s being calculated~ haha~ oh yah.. muz mention tt dere’s this guy tt’s particularly noisy in lec, keep toking loudly as if he knows everything. until i cant hear wat the lecturer is saying~ irritating~!~

after class, we, or i should say i gate crashed my meiz fren’s nephew n niece bdae~ and fYI i dunno her fren until yesterday~ haha~ its so unepected of mi rite~?~ if u were tinking tt most prob tt’s a guy… den u’re wrong… haha~ she intro her frens, both engineers, her colleagues are both gals~ haha~ and best is.. both are older den mi~ great~!~ even better is dat dey tot i onli 22. haha~ i dun look like turning 24.. haha~ and dey say i look pretty… yeah~!~ i love sincere compliments~!~ yeah~!~ so happy.

Anyway, after the bdae party, her fren drove us down to hougang to play pool~ played for an hour plus.  I’m still trying very hard to polish my accuracy~ haha~ trust mi~ i’m trying hard~

After pool, dey came over my house. And we had a mahjong session~ wah~ like very long nvr play mahjong le~ i miss mahjong~ but den i lost money yesterday.  Aiyah~ too distracted… i kept looking at my msn.. waiting for my fren to online~ anyway.. it was a futile wait~ sigh~ i lost until from $6 capital to onli left 30cents… luckily, after dat.. i won back some.. haha~ so onli lost $2 haha~ luck also not on my side, when i finally got good set, pple game already~ sigh~

Playing mahjong is good de, can prevent senile dementia de wo~ haha~ and can improve relationships between pple.  My frens asked mi before y i’m so good terms with my ex’s mum.  Bcos of mahjong~!~ still remember last time i went his house during CNY and dey short of one player so i sat down to play.. haha~ since den, his mum always ask mi to go over play mahjong and go shopping with her~ haha~ well dat’s part of the sweet memories left with mi~ Still remember she said if onli she had a daughter as good as mi~!~ haha~ but den like my mum dun realli appreciate mi, she appreciate other pples daughters more *sob**sob* although i’m trying very very hard to give her a comfortable lifestyle~ but with mi alone werkin, its so hard~ if onli my bro will know how to lend a hand and help instead of gaming away~ sigh~

Oh yah~ should tell u all a moral of the story for today rite~?~

Yesterday my meiz saying she plans to buy a sports car.  but den i told her if u spend $200k on an expensive car, when u can actually spend $60k also on an average car. u can save $140k wo~ with this $140k excess, u can actualli donate to society, to those needy.  Dere are a lot of pple who needs help, be it for treatment of illness, daily expenses, or even education. A car’s main purpose is onli to bring u from point A to point B, so as long as the car fulfills its task can le~ I dun tink tt its worth spending so much on STATUS, its such a immaterial thing~ might as well put the money into good use rite~?~ Sometimes human become so caught up in the rat race, tt dey become very obsessed with the word  "Success". I tink Success should not be measured by ability to own STATUS SYMBOL PRODUCTS like branded stuff, big houses, expensive cars, but how much happiness u can bring into how many pple’s life.  Like if i can now let my family lead a comfortable life, and dey are happy, or if i got the means of contributing to the society. Helping those in need, bringing them happiness.. i tink by den i will consider myself already successful, successful of giving pple happiness~ rite pple~?~

Dun get to obsessed with "success" and immaterial things~  nor should u try to seek recognition for the help tt u have rendered.  Cos it’ll defeat the whole purpose, liddat it will onli seem tt u render help bcos u want recognition for "success" Rite pple~?~

I hope pple reading this will awake and disentangle from the society’s rat race~ den it’ll be a much better place and environment to stay in~

i’m back again~ after reading a fren’s blog. it’s been quite some time since i read her blog, cos like her i was trying to preoccupy myself with lots of activities so that i will not tink too much~ after all tranquilizers will have side effects after long term medication~ reading her blog brings back a lot of painful memories tt i’ve tried hard to erased, and shattered my heart which i tot have healed~ i’m juz another senseless, over emotional and irrational woman dat needs showers of love and concern too.  she didnt tell mi tt she’s facing problems in relationship, cos she dun wants both of us sitting dere and crying our eyes red~ but i feel so bad for not being with her when she’s on the down side of life~ wat are sisters for~?~ for crying our together k~?~ how can u hid alone at home crying without mi~ so selfish of u~!~

Anyway pple, dun worry abt mi. i wun tink abt him. or possibly hold anymore dreams abt future with him.  Juz simply because NOW i am RATIONAL~!~ i know tt i want a long term commitment into marriage, which he cannot give. He cannot give mi an sense of security at all.  So no point continue hurting myself rite~?~ i will find someone who realli loves mi, cherish mi and appreciate mi for wat i do for him.~ I hope tt my fren’s tears will also stop raining~ somewat our situation is still the same~ we both seek long term commitments, since u cant get blessings from the families. might as well cut short the sufferings and look into a new life~ together with mi~ ok~?~