Yesterday , i met up wif Xueni fer dinner and SHOPPING~!~ wahaha~ We went to a chinese restaurant called MAYIM chinese cuisine.  The fried tou-fu and "sheng mian" was very nice wo~ After dinner i went to buy my contact lens and at the same time shop fer my god son’s stuff. its time he’s gng to learn how to drink from cup le. Xueni told mi she bought him a bicycle le, wah… tt’s fast…. so happy to see tt she’s so happy.

as usual,  my life becomes the topic of discussion.  Is my life realli tt colourful? Yah… i tink so… life as a single is always more colourful den "unavailable" status"  I was tellin her and well.. almost everyone… yet no one can get it… i juz want a SIMPLE, SWEET and HAPPY family and life. but many pple will want to trade places, does monetary satisfaction equate to happiness? I never believe in Cinderella stories, where a poor gal can marry a rich guy and live happily ever after.  I tink maybe juz bcos i dun like rich pple.  which is y someone bluffed me abt his family, bcos he feels tt i juz dun like rich guys~ BINGO~!~ haha~ mayb bcos i know of too many rich brats with serious attitude problems and "dun care" pple mentality.

Sigh~ when can i fulfill the dream of a simple happy family? Am i juz too greedy? Iz it bcos i’m not contented wif wat i have? I tink i’m too greedy, cos everyone has been telling mi "LIFE AINT AS SIMPLE AS U TINK! GROW UP!" yeah… its juz another childish and naive thought of mine~

End off here and i’m gng to rush to sch fer lesson le~ take care everyone~ hope tt everybody is living a life he or she wants and be happy~

I’m so tired. went to my new hse after werk, double checked the renovation. Xueni asked mi, y am i shouldering so much stuff. Can leave the checkin of reno fer my parents. Sad to say, i cant. Maybe i’m juz a perfectionist, and i rather oversee everything. Which thank goodness i did, cos dey built the stove at the wrong height and my mum still thought it was rite. Alamak!

Supposedly to go lesson today, which i realli wanted to. cos its risk management. i’ve skipped 3 lessons alreadi. i’m so worried. i have not been studyin, neither could i juz get down to study. bcos i dun have a place to study at home~ sigh~ i’m so worried dat i will not be able to score distinctions or get my merit degree. i realli want 2 attend lesson, but every sat i’ll have to either choose reno stuff or buy reno stuff. sigh~

My boss and my colleagues have bin very nice to mi, letting mi "blur" at werk and cumin in late. My boss even say tt i can let the contractors bring the samples to office to let mi choose so i dun nid to shuttle arnd. He even told mi, dun keep eating instant noodles, i drive u out to makan… Aint dey sweet? Raymond knows tt i’m feeling quite down inside, so he’ll keep cracking jokes or laugh at mi so dat i’ll cheer up. So end up everyday i’ll keep laughing non-stop like "siao" de..I’ve got nice colleagues rite? And my GM has been trying to be understanding too… i feel so fortunate….

Anyway, the reno will be finishing on the 10th of March. so i’ll be moving hse on the 11th of March~ so.. .. u guys wait fer my call k? esp those who promise to help mi move hse de… haha~

Buying this hse is supposed to bring happiness to my parents. i want my parents to be happy with the new hse. But at the same time i can sense the stress and tension in the family due to the tight schedule. cos the buyer of my old flat wants us to move out ASAP. I’m also feeling very stressed out, sometimes at the weakest moments i realli feel like bursting out in tears. But i keep reminding myself dat i have to learn to be strong, i cant continue on being so emotionally weak and make pple worried fer mi.

So this year i’ll learn to be emotionally strong and independent. And most impt stay as happy as eva~

Hey! Have u all dreamt b4 somethings dat will happen in future? den wen dat incident happens den u’ll recollect dat u dreamt of it b4? Its been happening recently.  I dunno if its "juz mi", cos mayb i’m juz tired? so my brain seems to be tinking too much? argh~!~ i’m gng MENTALLY SICK! wahaha~

Aiya~ LTA system gng to shut down fer one week, the past few days been busy preparing paperwerk and stuff so we can collect the cars b4 LTA system shutsdown. n recently car accidents seem to be on the rise, cos we’re having more cars sent down to werkshop fer replacements… wah…. do paperwerk till i blur blur le..

oh yeah~ i went to watch The Fog last nite at J-8, the story outline was not bad. bleh… … onli thing was it wasnt as scary as i expected it to be. *sian* but i saw a new upcoming movie ~Dorm~ its a Thai ghost story. Looks not bad, hopefully it’ll be shown b4 my exam preparation starts… speaking of which, i’ve been lagging behind in my studies. Haven been putting enough time to revise. tt’s realli bad. Yet on the other hand, i seem to have endless of things tt i wanna do.

I got the tickets to asianaerospace, my client gave mi. but den after askin so many pple, finally i found a fren to go wif mi.  But den… tml i cannot take leave to go le, cos got something to do. *sianz* in the end i ask my fren to bring his gf dere instead. sigh~

Guess wat i’ve been watching in the office durin lunch time today? did u guys hear abt the NYP gal and her bf who recorded their "erhem" on the phone? And this stuff has been circulating in the net? well, somehow its my colleague dat got this email and we were actualli watching it during lunch time… *faint* and he kept laughing away… not at the video.. but at mi…. cos i turned red in the face~ bleh~!~ I pity the poor gal a lot, cos could see her face in the video. I tink many pple would have recognised her.  Poor thing… i wonder how’s she gng to cope with the emotional stress. dat’s y i always say do things muz always think of consequences. dun play play until u get into trouble. And my colleagues ask mi if i gng to send it arnd. OF COS NOT LA~!~ although i always like to forward mails arnd… but i dun tink tis is an entertainment… its like adding on to someone’s misery. Will u guys send it arnd? maybe "males" will…hmm…

Juz now i was having dinner wif my family, we were eating crabs and den… suddenly my mum put two cans of beer on the table.. One at my bro’s side, another next to mi. I was like…. huh? so i joked with my mum… "u wanna drink beer ar?" den she replied "no. for u." i was stunned…. eh… how she know i got drink lei? i nvr drink in front of my parents b4 lei.. even on my 21st bdae.. den i recalled… i onli drank once in front of dem, at my cousin’s wedding.. i guess dey muz have been pretty surprised to know and see me down red wine one glass after another… tt was the time i was trying to prove the theory tt drinking can drown sorrows. apparently tt was a failure.. total flop~ Its been a long time since den i last drank… so er… beer taste awful now….

I juz got back from sch~ shagged~ not been havin enough ororz~ time is juz simply not ENOUGH fer mi~ well…. i guess i shldnt be lamenting tt much anyway~

Oh yah… remember i was toking abt the accident? well… sat afternoon i sat in my colleague’s car… den it was red light… and den he still went ahead and…. *wham* right straight into a "lau pok car" wahaha…. our camry’s damage was onli the license plate cracked… the other car’s backside was outta shape lor… den i was very tired and sick on sat, came back home to sleep… den my fwen asked mi out to accompany him nite cycling b4 he leaves Spore… ok lor… accompany him… well it was a mistake… i was so tired, dat i cycled straight into a tree… yeah~ everyone was saying "how can u be so clumsy?" ~haha~ if i not clumsy den where got so many things to entertain u all lei? Anyway this yr, i realli "fan tai sui" sigh~ so many unlucky things happen… lucky my "xiao ming" (small life) is still here…

Monday i nearly died laughing the whole day. Cos the insurance gal supposedly dated my boss out fer lunch, but den my boss is rather afraid of her.(cos she very the "u know") haha~ so my boss didnt want to go, he pushed me and my GM to entertain her. Den my GM also scared of her, so ask Raymond to join, den Raymond also afraid of her, so ask Jason to join.  In the end every1 in the office went except my boss, so we were discussing… rather bad tt every1 went except the intended invitee. So Raymond persuaded my boss to go~ wahaha~ den i took Raymond’s car down to Bishan, and my boss arrived last.. so we sabo my boss.. let him sit beside her… haha~ actualli not realli sabo, but no one dares to sit next to her… except mi.. cos i got nothing to lose mah~ haha~

Den throughout lunch very funny, cos one of my fwen is sending his car to our werkshop to do car. So i asked my colleagues, where to send the car to. Den, wah… each one tell mi one werkshop lo… i was like~ DUH? den dey started gng into details like… which werkshop specialise in wat, the cost, de werkmanship, blah blah~ And den… …. Its the start of a new debate topic~ If knock out dent of a bumper plus respray~ where is the best werkshop? ARGH~!~ can u imagine mi caught in the middle of no where? And dey were testing my memory, "florence, remember the X-trail respray cost how much?", or "remember the cost of knocking out dent of kangoo?" ar? do i look like a 200GB memory human comp? Oh yah… wanna know who won the debate? ~MI~!~ unexpected rite? cos after dey discussed for two hrs.. i told dem… " my fwen gng to send to VMS cos near his werkplace mah" wahaha~ dey all fainted~ wahaha~

After lunch, we went down to see the car tt was involved in an accident with our camry. But den… de boss told us… repair hao le… aiyah~ den sit in the office tok wif the boss… oh ya.. and wait fer my fren to send his car in.  My GM very funny lo… he told the boss "the guy cumin in is florence’s fwen, u dun count to expensive wo… later she dun issue chq payment to u ar… " ~haha~ i where got so bad de… the most i onli drag payment past 30days credit term lor~ ~haha~

These few days been real bz juggling, werk, study and new hse reno. Been coming home late.. Today’s the earliest… 12.30pm. after i crap finish here… den i can go ororZ le… Wah… although life is so busi.. no time to play… no time to nua at home… nor go chill out wif frens… but i’m sososososososo HAPPY~!~

hiya~Everyone! i’ve been tinking 4  quite some time if i shld be blogging~ hmm.. life seems to be so hectic and packed recently.  but i cant tink of any interesting thing to update u guys.

I’ve been busy wif new hse reno, cos i’m doing the designing myself. Finally on wed nite, i completed my drawing and took half day off on thurs to meet my cousin to confirm the measurements and design~  The onli place tt i’m satisfied most is my room.. haha~ cos i managed to fit in a zen style bed, cupboard at the window ledge (where pple can sit on to view scenery), and not forgetting A WALK IN WARDROBE (i managed to psycho my dad to let mi do it instead of an L shaped wardrobe)  wahahahahaha~ i’m so happy… i did take some pics of the place.. to mark the progress of the reno… i wanted to update it in the blog, but den ar… my comp crashed.. so it’s kinda dumb now.  Anyway… i’m gng to get a new comp. haha~ so happie~ For the past week they’ve been dismantaling the old furniture and stuff, today dey’ve done up the electricity wiring. monday onwards dey’ll be starting to hack down the walls… after which…. i also dunno le… haha~

Realli been very busy, cos i have to shuttle between werk and overseeing the reno. cos i’m the one doing the design.  I gotta source fer furniture and stuff, pretty tiring. Esp i’m the absent minded person… sigh~ and having to handle my parents also… sigh~ lucky my bro has been showing some signs of helping out.. and understanding too… cos recently he’ll ask mi.. "u wanna use the comp?"

hmm… werk wise also rather stress.. cos we’ve got new cars, meaning have to arrange fer loan, and stuff… and electronic side biz is picking up too.. meaning lots of delivery in and out. My boss has been very nice… he’ll ask mi if i’m busy before he pass werk to mi. but nine out of ten times he ask, i’ll give him the blank look followed by "huh?" haha~ den he’ll say… "never mind,continue ur werk" and he’ll bring it back to his room and do himself.. haha~ i’m such a bad PERSONAL ASSISTANT~!~ haha~ plus now we’re having this financing proj gng on… wah…. got a lot of things to prepare and do to show bankers… hai~… very very stress…

I feel tt i’ve been missing out on a lot of fun~!~ cldnt join my fwens to go clubbing, neither cld i go sentosa to play volleyball,swin and TAN~!~, nor to east coast to cycle, not even mentioning playing pool~ *sob* *sob*

The onli entertainment i last enjoyed was KTV session wif Xueni.. cos it’s been a long time the two of us "k’" songs together le.

I wanna focus on my studies, my career and my family now… i tink i have enough commitments already. I dun want another commitment so so soon… I still want to remain as a "Blue Chip Stock"  ~haha~

TT’s all folks…. i’m still procrastinating if i shld go sch tml? or stay at home and study? i tink the latter is better rite??? hmm…..

I tot my first tears of this year will be of happiness.. like when i finally graduate.  BUT~!~ sigh~ its not~ its of disappointment.

Again it’s the same person who made mi upset.  I’m realli very disappointed in her.  but at the same time it made mi realise tt i’ve matured~!~ haha~ does this sound lame? no rite~ after all pple who have known mi since young would have known that i have a temper like that of a volcano.  Although over the years, this volcano has been lying dormant.. and not errupted.. it still sends some shock waves once in a while. 

In view of such a situation, Florence in her teens would probably have yelled and cursed and swear away on the phone.. But now, maybe i’ve become much more gentle??? haha or maybe i matured and feel tt quarrelling does not solve any problems and probably add on more problems in future.  I’m actualli very amazed at myself. I didnt even raised my voice. its like so so so unlike of mi! I wonder if i’ve realli matured a lot in my thinking and my behaviour. cos i realli juz amaze myself at times. haha~

anyway dat’s besides the point~ i’m very happy. cos of the encouragement, support and concern dat pple have given mi.  particularly my boss, today is the 2nd time he toked to mi abt this.  At least he appreciates my effort in werk and i’m happy le.  Cos he’s the one giving mi my pay mah~ At least he appreciated my effort to put in OT or bringing home things to do. Which i’m NOT PAID to do. but in fact helping her to do, so that she can have an easier time doing. Since she doesnt appreciate my help, den nvr mind.  After all, i juz do wat i tink i will feel better. As in, if i dun help her, i’ll feel very bad. but den i help her le, at least i dun feel dat bad.  Den the rest is up to whether she appreciates or not. At least "wo dui de qi zi ji de liang xin" can le rite pple?

~Things are always beyond our control, but as long as we’ve already put in our best effort. there will be no room for regrets and remorse~

This will be my new quote~ haha~

Actualli yesterday quite "bei" de… i wanted to key finish the insurance. and rest of my werk came to a standstill. so… … some pple could see mi online till 7 plus. Yeah! tt’s how late i was werkin till, if not fer my parents who called mi to go home and look at new furniture… i dunno how late i would have stayed till. but den lei… surprisingly i still sortta celebrated vdae~!~ haha~ life is juz full of unexpected twist and turns.  Cos i went out wif my fwens for supper at punggol nasi lemak~ haha~ i miss tt place man~ its juz full of~ memories of merchant court times~

Sigh~ contentment is the realization of wat u have and not possession of wat u want~

I tink i’m reaching nearer and nearer to there~ hopefully i will learn to be contented with wat God has planned for mi and be able to take everything into my stride~

Anyway~ today is another shopping day fer me~ i’m shopping fer my new furnitures~ arh… so so tired with the new hse stuff~ someone help mi~!~ ~lol~ well… at least xueni is taking time out to accompany mi go shop fer furniture… haha~ she’s juz so funny~ hmm…. if onli all fwens were like her, so straightforward and simple and appreciating~ hmmm…. …

I’ve been hearing and sensing many life and death situations recently. like a junior who passed away recently at a tender age of 17. and a fren who had a close brush wif death at an accident. and not forgetting my own.  I dunno whether or when my illness will relapse. i will cherish each day tt God give mi to be with my frens and family members.

Valentine’s Day has always brought back many sweet memories to me.  Since the time I’ve started celebrating valentine’s day was in Sec Sch~ Tt time valentine’s day to us was not couple couple day~ but a day where we’ll show our friendship and sistahood to each other.. dat’s wen we’ll attend sch with flowers and pressies~ And at the end of the day we’ll all go home with all types of flowers and pressies… N dat’s the time wen u can see who are the popular gals in sch~ haha~ cos…. …. the popular ones will be struggling to bring home all the flowers and pressies~ From den… (lost track of wen i started following this craze) till now… i tink i onli celebrated a valentines day with a bf. haha~ so ironical~

Anyway~ its been pretty long since i last recieved flowers~ cos i’ve always told my bfs not to waste money to buy flowers.  But den woman are juz so contradicting~ dey’ll juz love recieving it. though i dun realli go crazy over it. haha~ anyway~ i recieved 3 bouquets of flowers, one was sent by my fren in Auz, another by a fren, and last but not least… the one dat nearly made mi cry… my FAV flowers…. by….. my DARLINGS~!~ wahaha~ i cant imagine u gals ordering flowers fer mi~!~ i’m so touched… it’s been so long since anyone gave mi those flowers… And thanks fer the super sacarstic msg in the card… i’m gng to share wif everyone… u’r lovely msg~

"Dear Darling,

Happy Valentines~ dun enjoy this day, cos u made three of us broke by buying u this bouquet of flowers.  So next yr when u get a bf, ask him to refund us the money.  Cos we’re buying this one on his behalf.

Yours most unwilling,

Your darlings.

Haha~ hey~ gals~ did u gals write dat so i’ll laugh instead of cry. Aiya~ i juz cant stand u all…. I LUV U gals~!~ I’m so touched.Thanks gals~

Oh yah~ Thanks everyone for the valentines and smses and msn msgs~ I hereby also wish everyone happiness~ in love and fwenships~ 

Social Chamelon’s iz very excited at the thought of being single on Vdae~ so she thought of organizing the most happening Singles’ party on Tue~  Bcos she has been left out of this party for the past 4yrs.

To her dismay~ almost every single and available guy and gal is not attending the party bcos dey either got sch or werk the very next day~  so sad~

Social Chamelon learnt another lesson~ she’s growing old le~ so sad~ she missed out on so many singles’ party.  Now when she’s eligible again…. sigh~ everyone’s now bogged down by werk and study commitments…

But den… itz juz another tues rite~?~ so maybe it’ll be a werk- home- tv- sleep routine fer the chamelon~?~

But the chamelon miss dancing~ its been so so long since she last went clubbing.

I MISS DANCING~!~ and PARTYING~!~ *sob* *sob*

Over the past few days, i clamed up and… discovered and understood and learnt some things.

Before i forget. I nid to thank my darling for being there to hear my rant on and on, for venting my frustations. And for driving mi to bedok jetty to cool off… I love u man~ u are my best butt~ haha~ Thanks for always being there to pick mi when i fall down.

Sorry to those who msn or sms mi and ar… got kinda ignored by mi.. so sorry… i realli didnt mean to give u all attitude or vent any form of dissatisfaction towards u.  Juz tt i needed time to cool off…

Didnt realli feel like tokin over the past few days, so i kinda didnt tok to anyone over msn.  Was realli pretty down and disappointed. Those who had called mi, would have understood y i was so so so upset over that loss of friendship.  u guys know how much i cherish friendships, but den wat she has done disappointed mi too much. 

This time i fell down, i learnt a lesson. maybe as time pass and i’ve fully recovered le. i’ll share wif u all.  Dun worry, 我看开了。there wun always be a 我为人人，人人为我. kinda situation in this society. Esp when it has bring in corporate ties as well.  I treat this as a lesson and learn from it. 我会长大的。不会再那么幼稚。

Anyway i’m pretty busy wif my new hse reno design~ i’ve come up wif the design le. shld be starting reno sometime nxt week…

Most prob itz gng 2 be last blog. cos the social chamelon is gng to turn autistic.

I’m not dumb, i juz act dumb. Dumb so as not to understand amd know the mean things and words that u have said.

I’m not gullible, i juz dun want to doubt the lies that u have said.

I’m not simple, i juz dun want to make the world complicated.

Being dumb, gullible and simple in life doesnt mean that u can step over mi, bully mi, make use of mi, say or do mean things to hurt mi.

Time and again i have acted dumb and deaf to the things u’ve done.  Time and again i have forgiven u.  To the point dat i dunno wat are friendship for? wat’s de point for treating everyone so well when dey onli reciprocrate wif selfish and mean actions to hurt mi.