fyi broke up again~ sad thing this time is not that he dun love mi~ not that he has another gal~

but his parents dun like mi~ and tink i’m not suitable to be their DIL~ and gave my EX bf the tinking that i’m thus not suitable to be his wife~

Sadder thing is~ wen two persons realli love each other~ but cannot be tgt because of these STUPID external reasons~

But no matter how stupid it is~ how stupid the reasons are~ i still have to put up with it~ and as the usual practice is~ i will onli allow one word as the ending~ REGRET~ regret~ not for mi~ but for the ones who gave up on mi~

Don’t say I love you

If you never meant what you say.

Don’t hold my hand

If you plan to let go one day.

Don’t say you will always be there for me

If you ever plan to leave.

Don’t make me fall deeply in love with you

If you never meant to catch my fall.

Don’t give me empty promises of love

If you will never fulfill them.

Don’t break my heart

If you are not there to pick it up.

~~~~~
Love begins with a smile
Grows with a kiss
Ends with a tear.

I went through my profile juz now…. recalled the feeling of HURT~

how hard for mi to stand up each time i fell down~

how naive i used to be….. i shld have known the ending right from the start.

A tear~ is how everything will end…. 

recalled how every relationship will end~ haiz….

recently got back the same feelings~ i was so scared…

I dunno if its the love that is getting stronger~ or i’m getting weaker~

i juz cannot let go~ the pain is like someone wrenching my heart…

cannot eat, cannot slp, cannot work~ and the pain seems to be so much more unbearable…

Feel so frustrated recently~

NOTHING has been gng well for mi~

so frustrated that i cant control my tears of frustration~

I hate the stupid ACCOUNTANT~ stupid UOB RM~!~she’s an IDIOT~!~

i’m rushing to prepare a new car’s financing~ told her URGENT~

Den first time i liase with her~ so out of courtesy~ i asked her wat documents she nid~ guess wat tt IDIOT told mi~?~

She said~ exact words: "I’ve already emailed Alan which are the required documents~!~"

BTW, alan’s my boss~ and i’m juz a PA~ Which hell of her mind tinks that i have direct access to my boss’s email? and which hell of her brain that she cannot use~ to recall wat are the documents nided~ STUPID~ is simply too good of a word to use to describe her~ IDIOT is a more appropriate term~ mentality of less den 30.~

she’s a total idiot… another example~ i ask her to prepare release letter for a NEW car~ she asked mi for INSURANCE~!~ wah kaoz~ finance havent even approve of the loan~ how i ask the insurance broker to prepare insurance~ IZ she OUTTA her MIND~?~

another example~ car not yet delivered~ where on earth am i to produce a INVOICE for her ???? Does she know the difference btwn purchase agreement and invoice ?????

Ok~ if her knowledge is tt bad~~~~~ take it as she’s new~ nvr mind~ her attitude lagi worse lor~ after i fax over the required documents~ I wanted to ask her if she recieved the fax~ I CALLED her HP~ she didnt answer~~~~… nvr mind~ at least return call rite ? ? ?? ? unless to say a RM cannot afford to pay the $5 for caller ID to return a call~!~  den she muz have been a veri PATHETIC RM~!~

GIVEN her 24hrs to return a call~ she failed again~ ok~ so 24hrs later i call again~ no return call ~ another 24hrs later~ so i gave up~ if any case~ my boss asks for the release letter~ which he did~ i gave him the exact date and time i called her~ and which she FAILED to return call~ so in the end~ my boss had to call her boss and COMPLAIN~!~

so this morn~ she called and ask mi~ so wat’s the loan amt and term~?~ and wat’s the price of the car~ the last QNS show EVERYTHING~!~ i FAX 48HRS AGO~!~ 48Hrs later u still haven process a single thing~!~ WTF~!~ URGENT LOR~ does she know wat is URGENT~!~ WAT A RM~!~ this type of RM~ i also can be~ and be a better one lor~ at least i return call within 24hrs~!~!~!~!~!~ and know wat is called URGENT~!~

Another person~ the ACCOUNTANT~ say he’ll come to set up the accts~ ask mi to key in the car details~ ok~ i key finish within  a day~ den he ask mi to start keying the invoices and stuff~ so wun have so much backload~ BUT~!~!~!~ for the past 48HRS he MIA~ still haven come down to key in the LAST QTR’S stuff~ how the hell am I gng to key in THIS QTR~!~ end up i sure have at least a month of back log to clear lor~!~

JUZ dun understand these pple~ y cant dey work more RESPONSIBLY~!~ if cannot do den dun do la~ better den to produce this type of shit~ to frustrate other pple~

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i juz dun understand guys~ y dey have wife or gf~

but still can go and sweet talk with other gals~ and not find anything wrong with it ~

so much so that other gals are reciprocrating back by giving extra attention~~~~~~~

worse still~ the guy reciprocrates back~~~~~

dun dey find anything wrong with that ? wad will dey feel if the same thing happens to the gf~ or wife ?

wun dey tink dat the gal shldnt have replied to in case the other party is being lead on ??? or shld dey tink tt its alright to let the galfren bask in the attention of another guy~?~

Been veri happy these few days~ probably~ not having much stress at work~… and everything has been gng on smoothly for mi~~~…

But still so poor~~~ trying so hard to save up for the HK trip this july~ still gOt shortage of 3K from my target~ haiz~~~~….

gng to force myself to study for advance theory test~ cos i’m having the test on sat~ still veri no mood to study~ haiz~~~~… no motivation still…. i dunno y~ i tot got car~ i will be veri motivated to get my license~ but not the case lei~….